Fears

I am finding myself more fearful in this pregnancy for some reason. I think about miscarriage more. I worry that I am carrying twins. Lucas prayed this morning that there would be two babies in mommy's belly. That's just great! I wanted to tell him to shut up.

I worry that the baby (ies) will be unhealthy or have some sort of deformity. I have been so blessed with two beautiful, healthy and wonderful children so far. How could I have another one?

Will this new baby be a terror? The first two are pretty mild mannered and behaved.

Can I even handle another? I feel on the verge of insanity at times!

God please calm these worries and give me peace. I know that you only give us what we can handle/are capable of with your strength. Help me to lean into and trust you.

Cravings

• Sleep
• That my kids would sleep in past 6 in the morning (this morning was around 6:30 and I was praising God).
• McDonald's chocolate shake and fries
• A clean house (one that would be self cleaning, preferably)
• An end to my busy schedule (planning Emily's birthday party, preparing lessons for 5 more weeks of children's program at church, etc.)
• To finish season 3 of The Office before season 5 starts this week.
• Quiet (often when I attempt to nap our neighbor is outside doing yard work with power tools and his radio blaring or the kids next door are shrieking outside)
  
• Did I mention sleep?

Positively Growing

Well folks, it's a good thing that we got that minivan over the summer because we are going to be needing it in the next 9-10 months. I am positive of that!

I peed on the test stick this morning and got a strong plus sign. That means that our family of four is growing into a family of five. We are positively insane;-).

So hip hip hooray for a new little Lomonaco on the way!